As if, I’m dooming and dooming dead every passing day.
Everything I do, I do wrong.
Everything I have, I have at stake.
Everything I see, I see negativity.
I’m manifestly not able to go good with the flow. Everytime you meet me, I’m that lousy little girl in her twenty something, who has no clue whatsoever. I’ve stopped learning new things. I’ve stopped putting in efforts to be a better person. I’ve stopped growing. I’ve stopped dreaming. I don’t see the spark in my eyes anymore. I’m required to be told what to be done and what not. I tend to ask for gemstones. I’ve started to believe in things I hardly ever considered. I’ve, at times, criticized myself to an extent where I’d be questioning my self being.
Every person, I suppose, at one point, feels the way I do and I’m not here to be victimised. I’m penning it down to find a way off the chain of thousand terrible thoughts hitting me in the head for days.
I just wanna breathe, in peace, for a while.
*Alas, certain commitments to oneself shall be made*